Thursday, December 23, 2010

I couldn't Live without You. (personal)

I shouldn't be up this late. I really shouldn't...

Did I mention that my husband starts work in one hour and it's his 26th Birthday Today?
Kind weird to think how far we've come since 2008...
If inspiration could be one person, it would be Jordan.
I've never been a person to share their feelings... well enough to understand at least. I know sometimes I must be the most difficult person to figure out. I must leave him thinking often that I'm crazy. Crazily determined. What he probably doesn't know is all that determination was never around before him. Maybe it's something I want for us. To have a life I think will be amazing. And sometimes I have to stop and think this life we've already made is amazing. And that's because of him.
That when we fight, we often laugh.
That he constantly whistles and I groan in agony.
That when I make food, I ask if it's good and he says 'it's okay' to drive me personally insane.
That before him, I didn't know what love was. Even though I thought I had.
And how do you explain to your family when you've gone mildly insane and move in with someone within months. When everyone looks at you like you're crazy. How I've lost friends and made so many more in return...

So if someone came up to me today and asked if I could go back and change it... I would never. ever. ever. for the rest of my life. I think sometimes you just know when something's right. Right forever.
If you have it - you know. If you don't, one day you will. and I promise you, you'll never trade that...

Collage of our years together...


If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song...

-the band perry "if i die young"

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